To my dearest JM,

I’m drunk.

And I just want to let this out.

We have been together, 6 years in total. We have been on and off due to some circumstances. We were young and free, we were careless, we were reckless, we wanted to explore. I was 13, you were 12. We were just a kid exploring in love. We broke up when we were 19.

I loved you, I really do. But things went off. I just want to let this off my chest because after all these years, It has always been you. I’ve met someone nicer, someone gentler, someone who will take care of me, but I don’t know how your impact will have a huge effect on me.

Em, hinahanap hanap kita sa bawat taong nakikilala ko. We had our closure 7 years ago. We were at our despedida of our closest friend. You looked out for me. I knew you still cared. But why can’t I move on? I don’t know if this is limerence or this is just the universe telling me that we will have a chance to be together again.

We may have end in my own terms, but oh God, is this the consequence of losing you?

I deeply hope and pray you are okay. We are in a small town, but I know the universe has its own way of telling me that our time is really over. We never met again.

I just want to let this out. You are loved. Thank you for being the standard. I loved you, em. Thank you for consuming whole of my JHS and SHS.

Please be happy.

Love, K.