Mental Health

So I am one and done because my mental health deteriorated so much starting during pregnancy. I developed major depression during pregnancy, which became postpartum depression and is now treatment-resistant depression. I just got disability for it, actually. This is all due to getting pregnant. I don’t regret my son, who is 6 now, but I regret not knowing what pregnancy would do to my life. I have since then also discovered that I am autistic, as is my son. I didn’t know any of this prior to pregnancy and becoming a mom. I so wish I could give my son a sibling, but it’s just not in the cards. I grieve daily. I feel awful about being frustrated that he won’t play by himself more, when I think that he would have a built in playmate with a sibling. However, I am on so many meds, have been hospitalized, and am in no mental shape to have another. It’s the responsible thing to not have another child. Is anyone else one and done due to mental health?