What's the point?

This is my throwaway account cause my bf LIVES on reddit.

I have asked my bf of 4 years to stop watching porn. We used to watch it together but it started becoming the only substance in our relationship. Wake up? Porn, eating dinner? Porn. Playing games? Porn. It got to the point where it was effecting my mental health so bad and I felt just absolutely low.

So I asked him to stop. This past year we have had like 12 D days. Since January, he locked me out of his phone for "privacy". He has gotten quiet. Hides his phone all of the time. Our sex life has dwindled. He left his phone unlocked a few times and just since January. He admitted to going to work early just to hide in the office to use.

Past few weeks I noticed his instragram notifications are all full of spicy content. I asked him about it and he swears he doesnt even use Instagram (our phones put unused apps into deep sleep so thats a fucking lie). Past 2 nights I saw half naked girls on his reels and I asked him and he straight up said "idk why they're there"

This morning while he was in the shower (after sex) I found out he is STILL looking at thirst traps on fb. There was at least 6 different OF creators in his search bar and his reddit history was blank. Meaning he cleared it AGAIN. I'm still shaking.

I resent him. My mental health is a cancer right now. I feel absolutely alone. I don't trust myself to be alone. I'm scared. I feel hopeless. Please for the love of anything someone save me from this hell.