Just after 9am and it’s already begun..

I am fairly certain my husband is a narc, or is just extremely selfish.

Every single day, unless I explicitly say or request, he “sleeps” while I get up with the kids. He never, ever hears them when they are crying or if they come into our room. I get up around 7/730 with both kids (2yo/4yo) and he stays in bed “sleeping” aka scrolling social media or playing games on his phone until usually 9:30-10:00 unless he has to be at work early. I can text him or yell for him and he gives me the classic “ok I’ll be down” but doesn’t actually make an effort to get out of bed. I’ve quit asking honestly. It just makes me resentful and I don’t want to start my day out on a sour note. Plus, spending time with my kids while they are sleepy and cuddly is a massive perk. ❤️🥰

I work for the local school district and have been searching for a computer chair on Facebook marketplace. Just something cheap for my classroom for me to sit on since one isn’t provided.. IYKYK. Anyway, I found someone selling 2 of them and decided to jump on it because we need one for our home office. All in, $20 for both so a great deal! Well now my husband is upset because I didn’t talk to him or ask his permission first. This has never been a thing in our marriage lol. I’ve never had to ask about buying things. When I have asked, it’s “I trust you” or “just be smart with money”. I was very taken aback by his response. Still am. He tells me I buy things every day (definitely do not lol) and that I need to cut back or I’ll need to get a new job. He isn’t kidding, he’s constantly telling me I don’t make enough and should get a new job.

I don’t know why I’m typing this other than for evidence and a little place to put my thoughts. I’m really tired of being caught off guard. I feel like my nervous system never gets a break.