Think I may be accidentally projecting or I’m tripping.

I’ve always been a vivid dreamer. From a young age I was encouraged to write down my dreams/night terrors and I kept at it for a while. I also tend to fall into the same dreams/dreamscapes. So I have recurring dreams consistently. I have also had dreams where scenarios played out and then happened in my waking life. It has helped me in many situations that would have been dangerous to me.

Now there have been 2 times, in my adult life, where I have felt like I was jolted back into my body.

The first time I was in a space & I remember acknowledging something was different because it wasn’t as clear as my usual dreams. It was weird because I could feel how I was feeling, which was excited/happy, but I couldn’t see why. I could see shapes and I felt like I was out dancing, and having fun, but visually I couldn’t recall what I was seeing. It kind of felt like it was happening too fast for my eyes to catch. Then it felt like everything slowed down and I heard a loud voice laugh. It wasn’t maniacal or scary but it commanded attention. So I turned towards the voice, but I couldn’t see anything. It just laughed again and said “you’re not supposed to be here”. Next thing you know I’m jolting straight up in my bed. I’ve never lifted up so forcefully before and it was like the wind was knocked out of me. I felt confused because I didn’t initially recognize my room, it felt foreign which was crazy because it’s the same room I’ve had for years.

The second time was just now. I was somewhere new, and it was clear unlike last time. It was a store with a secret room. There was a woman there from another one of my dreams but not someone I’ve known in my life, only my dreams. She warned me against the secret room but told me she couldn’t stop me from going. It felt like I’d been trying to get into that room consistently and I was eager for the challenge. Each time I went into the room, the reality shifted. It’s like I was stepping into a different time. The same lady would be there but there was also someone else. It goes black after each attempt and I end up somewhere else or coming through the doors of the shop again. There was a moment when I was talking to someone. They were telling me a story and I wasn’t listening because it didn’t feel important. Then together we opened a doll. I kid you not, it was giving Pinocchio vibes. Apparently you can customize it though. So I went to the shop again and told her I was looking to customize the doll. Somehow I wondered back over to the door to the other space, went in and this time I saw a bookshelf with books and a stack of loose papers. I grabbed a piece of paper, which was red, and it had a simple line on it “xiao xiao was a ____”. I turned around and felt like I needed to answer it to get deeper into the secret room. Kind of like a riddle/code. So I walk over to the guy that I was with to keep customizing the doll, and I said the line. He laughed and said he had just told me that story. I then recalled he was telling me about a ballerina. I wrote it down, went back into the room and started to speak the completed sentence. Then I just heard someone frantically screaming stop, but I think it was too late because someone was running towards me. Down the hall in the secret room and they pushed me. I didn’t jolt up this time but my eyes flew open and my entire body was vibrating, which is a first.

Both times it felt like I was being pushed/pulled back into my body. The first time definitely felt like I was yanked down while this time felt like a push.

Finally I realized Xiao Xiao doesn’t mean anything to my waking self so I googled it and there is currently a ballerina named Xiao Xiao in NYC.

Also, I take heed about spirits, so I did have to do a self check to make sure I didn’t feel any hitchhikers in my body 😅. Really I just needed to get this out because it felt like my dream journal wouldn’t be enough this time around. Especially since it didn’t feel like my normal dreams.