Its interfering with everyday life I can't stop

17M been watching porn for 7 years, and still very much addicted.

I keep having 'dreams' of classmates and them in pornographic scenarios and I hate it but can't stop.

I spent like 3 hours playing ROBLOX today so I'm just gonna throw it all away now.

I can't have a pure connection with any women anymore because I always ogle them or have the uncontrolled 'dreams', I'm not even that attractive so I probably won't get to feel what it's like anyway.

If I did I'd have to fess up but probably wouldn't because of the asshole I am.

People keep talking about a 'light of a tunnel', I don't see that. I take a break but then I just relapse. I'm never gonna know how to have sex properly.

I just feel like this monster, a wolf hiding in sheeps clothing if you will, where once I'm exposed for what I've done and nobody will love me anymore.

I'm seeing less & less forgiveness in peoples relationships these days, and I don't think anyone will forgive me for what I've done.

Please keep me in your prayers, I also watch a lot of shock content (I wont elaborate you can figure it out), and take a lot of pills so any help to get out of this mess would be appreciated.

Feels like I will be here forever.