i am so hurt

i know i’ve been distant. i know i’ve been lacking din. pero ang sakit lang makita na kaya niyong mag-effort sa isa’t isa, pero ako parang never man lang naisip. what hurts isn’t even the whole friend group. it’s that one friend na sobrang close ko talaga before. i honestly thought na if anyone would notice something was wrong, it would’ve been you.

akala mo lang i was rejecting invitations, but truth is, i was going through something. i just never talked about it. I distanced myself because I was struggling. i know one of our friends went through something too, and I’m genuinely glad you guys were there for her. you all knew what she was going through, so you kept reaching out and making sure she was included. wala naman akong issue doon. she was always more absent than me but now i see her with u guys more and i’m genuinely glad she’s going out, i rlly am. I just can’t help but wonder that if you knew what I was going through too, would things have been different? or was I just that easy to let go because I stayed quiet?