I didn’t think gender disappointment would happen to me, now I feel so guilty.

I’m a STM, I have a daughter who will be three will baby number two arrive this December. We just found out through NIPT we are having a boy. It’s not that I’m not happy, I have lots of little boys in my life I adore, and I am so thankful it all came back low risk and so far it’s been a good pregnancy besides morning sickness and the usual. My husband and I just had a vision of two girls, I saved all my daughter’s clothes and everything, which now seems so silly. My husband is disappointed too and we feel so guilty because of course we want our little boy and of course we will adore him with every fibre of our beings just as we do our daughter. I can’t even figure out why we’re let down. We get one of each, we know for so many that’s the dream. Just a vent, I feel like a bad mom that I feel like I need to mourn not having another girl. But I know it’s silly.