I (21F) am afraid that I´m going to cheat by accident on my bf (23M). Does someone feel the same?

Hi there!

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Quick info: were both from Germany so sorry for my englisch. We're 3 years together been through highs and lows and we live together. We are both studying and are in the 3 Semester.

so to my situation I have to say at first I love my bf, I mean I love him he is fucking awesome. He's hot, cute, nice and he just has something that if he enters a room you will recognize him. so that's that.

We recently started to go too "party's". its more like sitting around and drinking in the garden. We can and like to drink a lot , I mean were German it comes with the country ig... . And we girls started to kiss each other more often. I kissed almost every girl of the friend group and so did he with the guys , so it's fine for us to do so and that's not the problem. I´m just worried that I would think its normal to kiss anyone and might kiss one of the guys while being drunk.

I don't want to im not attracted to anyone there not physically or psychologically. I like them and stuff but really nothing more.

I had a time when I would kiss anyone who was down for it. Anyone I just liked it and yeah... my bf is not a big kisser in public but I would love to ( obviously) when im drunk. He thinks it's cringe and I got along with it and I still do. but only in this setting with the girls im kinda afraid I might accidentally kiss the wrong one

I don't want to leave the friends and I want to continue to go to the party's because it's so much fun.

Has someone experienced something similar? pls help!

Pleas don't hate me to much and thank you guys for your advice in advance