So, will it just never go back to being like the first two weeks?

So, I started taking bupropion about 5 weeks ago. I was on SSRI‘s before, but I asked for bupropion because my doctors don’t believe me that I have ADHD, and this is the only ADHD med that I can get prescribed without the diagnosis.

The first 2 weeks, it was like a miracle. I cleaned my room for the first time after 2 years. I got my life in order, started applying to jobs. It felt like the day had 1/3 more hours than before. I quit smoking, I did nothing of the bad dopamine-seeking stuff, like I didn’t buy things I don’t need, I didn’t even spend time on social media or play video games, because I just didn’t feel like it.

But then it all got kind of like before, maybe even worse because of the side effects. Heat makes me sick and tired, gives me headaches, and doesn’t let me sleep at night. Also, my personality changed to the worse. I get aggressive with friends, I‘m very jealous, overemotional, I dyed my hair blue, I blocked my dad‘s number (that’s actually good because he’s an asshole). I feel like my personality is changing and I don’t know to what. I also developed an obsessive crush (had that before but not that bad), I started smoking again, I spent 3 times more money the last 3 weeks than before. It’s like I turned back into my teenage self and I hate it. I also feel like I‘m passing out every time I get up because of the heat.

I‘ve read through a few posts here and apparently the first two weeks you get a kind of “high” that’s actually not what the medication is supposed to do? So, am I right in expecting that I will not get this feeling of being a normal functional human being again on bupropion? I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow, and I’m still not sure if I want to ask to quit, or to try it a few more weeks. I actually don’t know if I can take it. I’m literally worried I might punch a stranger in the face because their child is too loud or something. (I never had problems with aggressive behaviour btw).