I have hurt too many girls (2) because I can’t be with a woman. It doesn’t matter that I tell them from the beginning that us talking won’t lead anywhere ever. She still fell for me (and I for her). Hope is the last thing to leave us but at last she stopped hoping. I wish nothing but the best for her and that she finds something real. I don’t ever want to hurt anyone like that again so I just can’t start anything with a girl ever again. No matter how small.

I’ll just have to be only into men now. Stop consuming sapphic media. I’m having a meltdown I just don’t know what to do. Actually I know what I have to do but it seems impossible. I know I’m attracted to some men so I hopefully I can find one of those and settle down in a couple of years. I can survive a couple of years without any romantic connection with a woman, right?

I have nobody to talk to about this. I can’t tell my religious friends that I’ve only been emotionally involved with women for the past two years and I can’t tell my atheist/gay friends that I refuse to be with a woman because of my faith. But I can’t keep traumatizing women because they think I’m gonna change my ways and actually be with them.

I feel like I’m going to implode.

I don’t want any theological advice I just needed to get this off my chest. No I can’t be with a woman without going against my faith and I don’t want to do that anymore than I already have.

I’m quitting lesbianism