Y13 summer failed

Bruh I was so hyped for y13 summer me and my friends spoke abt so many plans and the freedom and relief from alevels
I’ve only met up with them once this whole time so what the fuck HAPPEND to those plans 💔
I hate summer I’m always alone blud I was so e
Genuinely excited for nothing.
One of my close friends is going on holiday for a month and my other friends are always out with their family and stuff
But my family unfortunately aren’t the type to go outside to eat or hang out much at all which is why I always rely on my friends for that
But yeah I’ve been averaging probably 10 hours a day screentime
Is anyone else in the same situation I’m seriously so disappointed in myself