Need advice from an adult

I’ve never had anyone to rely on. I don’t have a father, and my mother has always treated me like her boyfriend, or an accessory instead of her daughter.

I’m 17 and I think so much about everything all the time. My siblings were taken out of my mother’s custody months ago, and i just feel really lonely. I need an adult so bad and it is so painful to just rely on myself. I automatically overanalyse every relationship just to disappoint myself, which makes me isolate myself even more.

My mom is never home. My body rejects food. I cant talk to my friends because my problems are too heavy for others my age. I will be lost in the system when i turn 18 because of my country’s incompetency

I feel overwhelmed, abandoned, hurt, i just want my mom