Does this make sense.

So I’ve been struggling with depression for as long as I can remember. I tried I guess what would be considered “cutting” maybe idk. I would get a pen and draw on my arm. Then I’d get something sharp and just rub back and forth til it cut enough to scar. I wasn’t a fan cuz I feel like I think about the process too much. I have an issue with textured and I didn’t like feeling myself cut into my own skin. But I get tattoos and I’ve donated blood a number of times. I think that I don’t self harm but i find it okay if someone else is drawing blood out. The tattoos and Donating blood makes me feel better. Idk I always think of this. I haven’t had a tattoo in a while and I haven’t been able to donate blood cuz my health isn’t good. But I feel like I need to do something. My tattoos give me a good feeling for a few weeks. Is this some kind of self harm or some coping mechanism with depression or something? Am I the only one? Sorry if this makes people uncomfortable it’s not my goal I just feel so lost.