Technoblade is my hero

first time posting on this subreddit, I didn't actually even discover it until a few days ago. I've been really messed up over Technoblade's death recently. I think it's because I just turned 23. I dunno. It hurts so bad, and that feels so silly to say because I was just a fan. I didn't know him, and yet I feel like there's a void in me now.

Earlier today I tried to go onto skyblock on hypixel after rewatching one of Technoblade's videos on it, and my brain just checked out. Like I just stood there in the game for a moment and then had to log off. I couldn't take it.

I keep listening to Tom's video Grey Day as well. It's so beautiful, but man it breaks my heart.

I don't know what I'm posting this for honestly. I feel silly being this torn up over somebody I never met. I just really loved his content. So much. I wanted to be a minecraft youtuber just like him. Whenever I had to do something scary in real life, I'd think 'what would technoblade do?' and then I'd be able to do it.

I miss him so much. And it keeps hitting me that there will never be new content by him again. I don't know how to get past that. Someone tell me how to get past that.

I'm really happy to see how much love Technoblade still gets even after he's passed. I hope that love never ends. Please let his legacy continue on forever.

That's all I had to say. Again, I'm not really sure what I was looking for with this post. I guess I just wanted to share how much I love this guy, and still think of him as my hero.