No motivations no methods

I've been trying every single method of manifestation for at least a month. And i know things wont show up within a day..I mean it depends. But I tried to manifest having a good Monday and I actually had the worst day of my life and none of the manifestations ive been doing are showing up. This is ultimately a me issue..im just venting im really upset I dont know what to do I feel so hopeless. Why wont my manifestations work. Ive been doing self concept and persistenting everyday with a routine of robotic affirmations, subliminals, different methods, law of assumption and law of attraction, Journaling, scripting. Every time I doubt myself I just set myself back so much and its taking a really big toll on me.