Anyone else have to work through mental blockages around making more money?

lol, a weird Q. I average around $35 - $60/hrhr, yay! I’m still baby. When I crunch numbers, I feel like working up to $150/hr is the goal to live my best life.

But liiiiekekekekiiikeee I grew up poor, I’ve never had money like that. And there’s this weird internal ..fear around it? I get in my own way. Find reasons not to start multistreaming yet, or get in my head when I could be making more $ from a client but stop myself from engaging as much with if things feel “too good” already. Like my brain believes $50 ish/hr is the ceiling for me so why try for more and disappoint myself 😭💀

I also realize that the more $ I make, the more likely I’ll be found out. I have already accepted this is a risk no matter what. Most of my friends know and my family wouldn’t have a problem with it. But there’s still some embarrassment/shame I’m undoing. TBH dirty talk is one of my biggest strengths. Idc if friends/fam know I do this work. But if the men in my life saw me butt ass naked talking about draining someone’s cock it would be awkward lol 💀💀💀 ultimately it’s worth the risk lol. But I am working through the uncomfy feelings about this too, which also adds to the money increase block.

This is sort of just a brain dump to help me process and commiserate. Anyone go through this? Overcome it? Working through it now?? Feelings are non linear, for all the moments like this, I have others where I feel on top of the world for being a cam girl :) I really do love it, and I know working through my insecurities will only add more value to my life 🙂‍↕️💓