i’m exhausted

Work. work work work. work. 12 hours a day with the long drive. new very important job. can’t make mistakes. first healthcare position. i have a panic attack almost every morning. but it’s not that bad. i walk in with a smile. full time job and online college. college. oh man. it’s killing me. it’s all i’ve ever wanted. i’m a late bloomer. i dropped out of highschool. i got my diploma later in life and started going to school. i’m finally bettering myself. but wait. i got three hours of sleep and i just got home from work and now i have to do school work for at least 4 hours. i just want to sleep. i’m so tired. i could barely keep my eyes open on the road. i’m starving. i haven’t eaten anything. i need to cook. do i have time to cook? do i have time to eat? will i have time to sleep tonight after my school work? i always get A’s. today i received my first C. i misunderstand an essay assignment. i saw my C on my break at work. i burst out in tears. i’m doing everything i’m supposed to. how could i get a C. i worked on that essay for 3 hours yesterday. how. i’m so scared. i hope i don’t fail. i have to work even harder on the next one to maintain my A’s. our electric got shut off last week. i was very sick. i got behind. i got so behind. i had to push through. i always push through. i just want to close my eyes. forever. i’m exhausted.