26 - Tall ex jock with dirty fantasies

Figured out some stuff by watching perhaps too much porn during COVID.

I initially started with an attraction to women dominating men. The gay porn element came from videos of women having two guy subs play with each other.

From there, it spiraled into gay for pay porn and bondage stuff. Some modern and a lot of vintage material. But while watching, I was doubtful that I had a romantic attraction to guys. More so that I was attracted to being objectified and would only be with a man if he had something to offer me. So that idea of being like a stripper or porn star really got me turned on. I think a lot of that came from being objectified by gay guys too haha. It was hot to know what the gays that sexualized me would do if they somehow gained access to me.

Would fantasize about stuff like gay nerds getting tech jobs that made them rich as hell. And paying me to service them. Mocking how the mighty have fallen. Bragging about having the prom king call them Sir.

But it’s so odd, I feel like I need some kind of incentive to get hard over this stuff. Hard to tell sometimes if i’m attracted to the men or the privileges they could offer me.

Obviously it’s not something i’m interested in pursing irl. But roleplaying that kind of scenario gets me so turns on.

A bit strange, but interested to know if anyone else shares this urge.