[M4F] I think I know you

I don't know your name. I don't know what you look like. I don't know how your voice sounds. I don't even know the things that make you smile, or the things that make you squirm. Then how do I know you?

I know you find yourself on corners of the internet that you never imagined you could be a part of. I know you look at things that make you question your own sense of self, because of the way they make you feel inside. And I know that sharing any part of what you do in the privacy of your own little universe is so astoundingly terrifying to you that you're afraid the impact of someone finding out might be irreversible.

I know that you deny yourself the possibility of finding a piece to fit this hole in yourself. You pretend life is good, that it makes sense. That you're fulfilled. Your friends, your family, the people you work with. They have no clue where you go once you're home and by yourself.

Maybe it's a dedicated sex chat room, like the old days. Maybe it's a forum where other people that are like you congregate to share the wild thoughts they have. But something always feels off. You see the obvious denizens of a place like that.

You see the truly dedicated writer, toiling away at their words to string together something that you can't deny is beautiful, but... It's missing something. It fills you with desire, but doesn't come close to alleviating the feelings that you've been harboring.

You see people who've found comfort in their space. The people who are seeking a connection, and maybe can't separate the sexual aspects of what they need from the social. People who have made friends with one another on accident in the most unassuming of places because of their shared need.

But then you see the boys. So desperate to find someone to experience something with that you can practically smell it through the screen. It hits you... This place cannot possibly hold what you're looking for.

You wonder why you're different.

I know that it's because you fall right in the middle. You're in this limbo of being so unbearably horny that you're willing to crawl around seedy places online in the hopes of finding someone you can connect with on some emotional level. You have good friends, a good life. But it's missing something that, for reasons you may or may not know for yourself, you don't believe can fit into your life right now.

I know you're longing to have someone who can be both. Someone who can be a friend, a confidant; someone you can tell about your day and how stressful it was. And someone who understands that after one of those days, the only thing that could possibly put a bandage on it would be sharing the same insatiable lust with another person who is just like you.

I know you.

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Limits: gore/senseless violence, pregnancy, illegal, non-human, bathroom