32F with shit luck

I dont know why I'm venting here but if I dont vent anywhere at alll...I'm going to explode!! Life has been so unfair despite me trying to put an effort...whether that's relationship, education, family, investment..... anything I try working towards fails... I dont even have hope anymore... Its like an opportunity is snatched from my hands by mere seconds. This happened again yesterday where I lost on an imvestment deal without being it be a fault of my own. I did my duo diligence..yet wothin seconds I got fucked over....& im so numb right now ...

Its not just failed investment but failed relationships...not being appreciated at work despite being more talented than other yet not growth opportunity for me. Im getting the short end of the stick over and over again in life.

I don't know how to keep a positive outlook or look ahead ... or be resilient when all I have been trying to do is bounce back constantly. I have gone through a lot of major life event. People noemally go through one or two events...I feel im thrown in a nightmare for the fun of it by my destiny. This is why I feel I have the worst luck. Constantly having to try to bounce bacm...life isnt giving me a break..

All I keep thinking is....Is this a sign that my life is over...and that there isnt hope that me working hard or being resilient will change anything ...cause so far it hasnt...

I dont even have the capacity to make life choices anymore...i dont trust myself or my luck