Nothing is ever enough for my brothers

It's quite late here but I can't sleep. I had a terrible night. We had a few sudden off days, if I knew beforehand I'd go on a trip but I was bored out of my mind for like three days, I only got to go to the gym. I haven't been out for a while in general cause I've had an eye surgery two weeks ago so I thought I'd finally go for a car ride at night, since there's not much to do in my town and I'm pretty lonely.

I live with my parents and my older brother, who doesn't, had borrowed the car for a day (his car was at the repair shop, which me and my mom retrieved for him) but had kept it for a couple more since he didn't have to leave for work either.

I told my mom that I wanna go out so she called him and was like if it's not hard for you and you don't mind bring the car over, he seemed a bit reluctant to me (from my mom's responses) so afterwards I was like, I could get an uber but my mom said, no why would you?

Btw, he's like ten minutes away and has done nothing for like the past week, has no childern or anything. So I get ready and he arrives. My mom had told him that we'd give him a ride home, but he sounds annoyed and kinda pissed and (doesn't come in) tells my mom that he didn't want the car in the first place and wanted to take an Uber from the repair shop, blaming my mom for insisting to take the car in the first place and saying he'll take the uber home and storming out.

I was already feeling down so I got choked up trying to talk to my mom and she was like, he didn't say or mean anything and I was like, please, I'm not an idiot.

I just felt like shit, like my brothers are both always whining and complaining and I honestly have the worst life and I never do but I don't even have the right to want to go out after being trapped in the house for three days? Idk, like I see my cousins whose whole parents life revolves around making them happy and entertained and I just feel so less and worthless. Like not even my own family thinks or cares.

My mom and I still went for the ride cause I didn't wanna stay and feel worse but I was quietly crying for a while and then got back home and cried in my room.

Another thing is my mom kinda argued with me about misunderstanding the situation after my brother left but then didn't attempt or say anything as I was crying. I don't cry in front of her, unless I can't control it so it rarely happens but she never consoles me and that makes me feel even more unlovable.