Where is any of zan gil jah service speeches?

I looked online and i cant find any. I remember being in the church and seeing 1 video of her speaking. I dont get how they can be so secretive. I do remember we were not permitted to record service. This lady os 82 years old and we see only pictures of her in her 40's-60's.

There was a time a member posted a verse on Instagram and the church told her to take it down. Then said for everyone to not do it. The church is responsible for whatever is put online because it can be twisted by the devil. That was definitely my turning point

One time on sabbath day during our break time we all watch a video together and it was about how to smile. We had to put a pen in our mouths and hold it with our teeth to smile the correct way. No one else thought thought that was weird