theres nothing good about this

my voice is so high pitched. my hips are big and wide but everything else is absolutely tiny. (relative to my fatass hips. not height wise, im ~5’6-5’7) and if i choose to pussy out and not transition (unlikely) i’ll have to face misogyny and only be seen as a future mother/wife and a toy and servant for a man. if i transition i’ll have to face transphobia and shit. i’ll also still be so obviously female due to my stupid fucking hips. i hate my hips. if i haven’t made it clear, i want my hips gone.

so yeah! there is absolutely NOTHING positive going for me right now and NOTHING positive going for my future. why do i still bother.