Breakups because of different goals HURTS

Yesterday me and my ex broke up. It was the right thing to do but it feels horrible. We loved eachother very much and we understood eachother on a level I haven’t experienced before.

The main problem was, he wants children, and I’m pretty sure I don’t. I don’t see myself being able to handle it. I get overwhelmed and overstimulated very easily and I just can’t see how the pros weight over the cons. I tried to tell myself that it was something that I wanted, but I realised that I only did that because it was something HE wanted.

I feel proud of myself. I had ignored this inner voice for so long and I kept lying to myself. Something always felt off and I just couldn’t pick myself up and feel happy.

I don’t know why I’m writing this here. Maybe I just want to hear that I did the right thing and that everything is going to be alright. I feel so empty and alone and I already miss him SO much. But it would hurt so much more in the future if we kept going.

Fuckkk.

Whoever is reading this, I hope you have a wonderful day and that you are kind to yourself ❤️