I (18F) am obsessed with touching myself in public.

I turned 18 this year and became obsessed with touching myself in public. I got out of a really bad relationship and a few weeks after that I started touching myself in my college restroom stalls.

I would go in between lessons and edge myself, I did it multiple times a day until I came. After that I started getting more risky, like the one time at the park next to my college campus. I had 25 mins between lessons and went to a kind of secluded park where I just pulled my pants down slightly to play with myself. I didn’t get to finish but it felt really good. Once in the train restroom but that was not super exciting, and my back yard at night with my pants and panties pulled down. So I was sitting on the ground in my open back yard, my ass was touching the cold ground and it felt so good to play with myself like that. But now I can’t make myself finish when I’m in the safety of my room.

I’m still too shy to do anything way too risky but I’m scared I’m gonna take it too far one day because I struggle to feel any pleasure now when I touch myself without there being any risk. And I kinda also feel like a disgusting pervert.