28F Autistic woman looking for resonance

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I am a very depressed woman living in Russia looking for somewhere I fit in. I am interested in psychology, especially schizophrenia (my brother has it) and AVPD (my boyfriend has it, it is the curse of hikikomoris). I am autistic and find it hard to relate to others or to find friends. I like some anime like Welcome to the NHK!, Gantz and Inuyashiki. Movies I like - Lilya 4-ever, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, The Fool, 1984. I am lazy and I generally do almost nothing all day because I am depressed. I am very realistic and I don't pretend to be anything else than I am - a loser. I like AI and future technology but am too drained to learn how to code again. I have had some interesting experiences due to living in Russia as a Westerner and due to my transhumanism ideology but otherwise I am very boring. Message if you want to be my friend, including voice chat, especially if you are similar.