Had a zoom meet for a new job on Monday

I think it went relatively good. Felt super prepared, wrote my own questions, prepped answers to possible (usual) questions that get asked. I felt ready!

Once that was finished, I was told that I would need to come in to the main office on one of two days to meet with some other people. (local office, local job but still WFH).

After this zoom meet I wanted the job more then ever but due to my lack of confidence and having been let down by previous interviews, I just get this sick sense I won't get the job. One of the days to do the meet up is for tomorrow or next Tuesday. I haven't heard anything back yet as to which day.

A part of me is going to be so completely deflated if I don't get this job and to top off all of this, I got called aside for coaching to do a PiP and I don't even fucking NEED one! My metrics are spot on and my TL said I'm really good with the callers but it's my "notes". I can't really go into much detail or this post would read like a book, but I did stake my claim on reasons why I'm "forgetting" shit.

Blatantly said that QA and (said TL) can go back and rewind and listen multiple times on calls.... I can't! I'm living that call in real time. And will admit to saying stuff like "oh fuck! I forgot to say this or shit, I forgot to write that" when the call finishes. It's too late for me to go back and "rewind". Unlike them. Plus it's not like I'm getting huge markdowns. I'm in the 90s percentile.

So I'm gutted and am really hoping my guts are wrong about this other job.