What do I do? Please help me😭

Hello, I'm turning 20 this month and I'm currently doing 6 months pre sea course in a merchant Navy institute I wasted my last 2 year in getting this field but I came here to campus and you can only leave campus on Sunday and i littrely cried for 4 days and it's 9th day today and I'm still crying.

So now I'm realising i can't stay away from my family and this merchant Navy job is like 80% time I have to stay away from my family so I'm fucked my father was in dept of 5lakh and he borrowed 2.85lakh for this course and im crying here that I don't wanna do this so the question is what do I do now.

I have nothing just a phone here and the free time i get here i gotta do something that I can make my living after 6months and I don't have to go to the ships.

I'll tell you what I'm good at if I try I'm basically good at everything I just need some guidance how to start

I love running long distance I edit my own videos for fun i tried making youtube videos but I can't find a niche I'm thinking of starting it again

And I'm thinking of doing drop shipping

I just need something that can make me around 50k to 100k a month im ready to give everything I've got so please help me

And about that institute they don't give refund so I can't cancel the course and i gotta manage my father's reputation at village so I can't leave this course

Please someone guide me this is the time that I think I can pull of something otherwise my life is done for.