PTSD/PANIC DISORDER

I’m not looking for a doctors diagnosis I’m just looking to see if anyone has had a similar experience.

I’m currently in therapy as well and have been avoiding meds (specifically SSRI’s) but I think it’s time to start some meds again.

My brain is constantly going non stop. I had a traumatic incident in August 2025 where I experienced a 210 bpm at the gym and ever since then I’ve had constant panic attacks. I’m constantly hyper fixated on physical symptoms as well. Constantly checking my heart rate, thinking I have chest tightness, convincing myself Im having difficulty breathing, thinking my heart is gonna stop, etc. like it doesn’t end.

I’m a very disciplined person in the gym. I track all my macros, always hit my steps, always go to the gym before work. I am very OCD with my routine as well but at the same time I do have trouble focusing, have extreme brain fog as well. I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt relaxed.

I can’t get into my family doctor until the end of the month but I am so in my head about things that I feel like I’m at a breaking point LOL. Would love any sort of opinion advice whatever.