Am I poly or just lonely?

So basically, I daydream of living in a polycule sometimes

However I don’t day dream of like sex or even intimacy

I daydream of cooking meals, baking pasties, and washing dishes for my polycule

Thus the question

I used to date a poly person and didn’t experience any jealousy. Like, at all. Which is probably a good sign. But I never tried dating more than 1 person at once.

Still though

I’m kinda stuck between if I’m actually poly

Or if I’m just overcompensating for the lack of acceptance and love in my life (closeted trans)

Idk, was just wondering if anyone has any similar experiences

FAQ link doesn’t work before anyone says to go it.