Worried about hiv ..

Hey guys. This is my last effort to get some sort of assurance.. if anyone has any thoughts pls let me know

I started sleeping with someone new around 2 months ago. I was insanely attracted to him and hadn’t been w anyone new in years. We slept together 4-5 times. No condoms were ever used although I practically begged. I liked him a lot and i guess gave in each time. I don’t trust that he’s monogamous and I have concerns about his sexuality as well. He denies all of that. He does cocaine as well which I found out after. I don’t think he does anything else. This was not a casual thing either- he told me he loved me, wants a future etc.. so I’ve been dating him - despite having these trust issues.

So we started sleeping together in mid May (only once) then again early-mid June. End of June, only 10-13 days from our second time, I took a rapid test and it came back negative. I did all other Sti testing and a proper hiv blood test (through needle).. the clinic told me results would be ready by the 10th business day which is today. There was a holiday in between as well.

I’m so so nervous that the blood test picked up something that the rapid one did not (as rapid only tests for antibodies).. I called the clinic as they told me they’d call me regardless of the result, (as I was also inquiring about prep) and they haven’t called. I keep calling them- but they say the results aren’t available . This is giving me tremendous anxiety. In terms of symptoms, around June (days after we slept together) I started getting a cold. It was minor, but it came with muscle aches and a lot of fatigue. No fever but it took like 2 weeks to go away and I still have congestion/mucus. No other real symptoms but I know a lot of ppl don’t have symptoms.

The fact that this is taking soo long to comeback is what is freaking me out, I’ve been in the dark for 2 weeks. I’ve read that public health would reach out if something was wrong or there would be urgency but what if they’re retesting etc ? I’m so nervous.. if anyone has any thoughts or ideas pls lemme know