Spent 6 hours editing a reaction video that 43 people watched

Recording is the fun part. i'd do it every day if that was the whole job.
but the actual cycle is: 50 min raw footage → one or two full evenings cutting it down, fixing audio, trying to make the slow parts not boring → upload → 43 views.
7 months of consistent posting. and honestly it's not even the view count that gets me, i knew growth would be slow. it's the hours-per-video going into something basically nobody sees. that ratio is what's burning me out, not youtube itself.
not quitting. just tired this week. how do you guys keep showing up for the editing part specifically when the numbers aren't there yet?