How do I cope with the fact I'm gonna be single forever?

I feel like I have no reason to try. I'm 25, autistic, cant afford to move out (cant get a better paying job), nerdy, and live in a rural area. The last time I was ever with anyone was 2018 when I was a high-school senior, but that didn't last for long. I feel like I have 0 desirable traits, most of my interests are nerdy, I'm overweight and struggle to loose it, dating apps are expensive and I can't afford them (mention that in the dating advice sub and they'll poor shame you or just be a dick about it). I feel so hopeless, I genuinely feel like I'm gonna be alone my entire life. Sure I have a few friends, but I want something more than that. Something everyone except for me can have. I have no idea what to do or where to go. I long for something I can never have and I dont know how to cope with it. I try to distract myself with other things but my mind still comes back here. I wish I could talk to someone and reach out for help, but alas I cant. I pray for my loneliness to end only to be met with silence. I'm lost, I'm hopeless, I'm alone, and will die alone. So, how do I cope with it?