Something i wrote down in my notes app in a bad mood but it raised many questions!

Humans never love anyone, they prioritise or favour someone but humans dont have the ability to love, people say love is something purer or without exchange but that isnt how humans are made, if the conditions arent fulfilled people start getting hurt and they hurt the other person either all at once or in small packages but its true, a human connection without exchange isnt possible , there is a little bias , its always there , it knows and u know it too, but people dont adress it cuz it goes beyond the standard human perception and it crushes the hope that humans have about someone taking the weight off their shoulders cuz normal humans arent able to bear it alone , even religeon and god is a part of hope where humans cope by thinking about some imaginary sky friend who will help them and they should live by his orchestration cuz he is the curator , but they are dumb , the only things this does is kicking the stone forward so they dont have to face their questions and their filthy nature and the horrors of their existence , humans arent imperfect , they are perfectly built for suffering but humans being humans found a way to wiggle out of it just long enough that they die and dont have to bear the weight

Im 18 and i a math major ("ik ik this might appear very im 14 and this is deep" and it might be but go easy on me pls) and u dont know much about philosophy and havent read much but it has always intriuged me and i have a habit of writing my thoughs in notes app this is a rough extract from one of my scribble tell me what all of you think :) and thank you for reading