Day 8 of soberity

I woke up today at 4.40 pm. I had like 12 hours of sleep. That was all fine as my therapist said take more sleep as possible. Actually it's my fourth time after relapse. in past i was able to stay sober for 62-74 days each time before relapse.

It's like i have to do few things like to go to a doctor and do few chores. I feel i am not able to do those things. it's like i don't wanna go out of my house. I just don't know how am I gonna be okay. And it's like the last time I had a routine but now it's all long gone. Still it's like i am gonna waste my whole day completely. This perticular sensations just ruins everything for me. I guess I would take a bath and brush my teeth but , I don't feel like it . After having some coffee it's okay now somewhat. let's see how the day goes.