guy i like

im so sad
i really liked this guy, thought we were flirting and stuff
knew him for a month
talked a whole week, all day, calling each other just talking
then he stops sending me texts, maybe he just got busy and im overthinking it, but i really hope he goes back to just randomly messaging me and showing me what hes doing or where hes going, sending me voice messages and all
but honestly, i might’ve just thought that there was a potential relationship somewhere there wasn’t
this always happens, guys like me for a while, might realize im a little odd or something and realize im not worth it
im not pretty or interesting, or smart or bold
im really like a background character, i notice it when i see others speaking out, being bold, taking chances where i could never slip through
i see them going somewhere in life, and easily creating relationships
so whys it so hard for me?
ive always wanted a boyfriend, but i’m just never enough, and i have too many problems.
i wish my dream guy could come to my life and change it, make me feel like i’m worthy of someone’s love, and make me feel useful

wow, one problem became another again