I need advice about burnout from autism.

I'm actually recovering from an autism burnout. I was severely depressed for four years before finding this explanation, but now I feel powerless and weak. My dreams and visions of my future life have fallen apart.

Now, I feel traumatized by forcing myself. If I try to force myself, I feel intense anger, and if I insist, I cry. For example, if I'm walking outside and suddenly the path goes uphill, I can't force myself, and I'll be stuck and crying about just this idea.

But life requires effort all the time!

I am afraid to feel this inability until I die. Maybe my capacity being mask was extra low...

Has anyone else felt this way? Has anyone else felt traumatized? Can you heal?

I want to have a project and do something with my life instead of being stuck forever.