People think I'm lacking courage or

Many people think that I lack will power or motivation but moving through society I get less chances, I get bullied a lot too. I was always very happy and excited but the world can be humbling to marginalized people.

To some people I come off as lacking courage, will power or confidence but when I get bullied for just breathing and someone else tries to do the same things and goes very far cause people don't bother them, is it really lack of courage? When the door is closed while for others it's open.

I have even been told I lack confidence by people who put me down. And also whenever I let them know that I'm not feeling well cause of bullying, they act shocked like being sad is weird or extreme. Idk why it surprises them so much since they partook too.