Doctor refuses to put me on an SSRI

I had an appointment telling my doctor that my mood stabilizer has not helped with my depression or SI at all and would like either something different something to go along side with it. I know anti-depressants can be dicey with bipolar but that’s the ONLY medication I’ve had that helps depression and doesn’t make me want to k**l myself. Last SSRI I was on sent me into hypomania which in turn led me to my diagnosis so I understand but that wasnt paired with a mood stabilizer at the time so I think both would be beneficial. They keep trying to put me on antipsychotics but those do not help