My Brothers Friend — An anonymous confession.

Hello, lately, I have been thinking about my brothers friend from when I was in highschool.

It all started when I was coming home from a tiring day at school. That day, I chose to commute instead of asking to be picked up. Moments after I got off of the jeepney and started to walk, I couldn't help but complain to myself. I sighed and said "Jusko, pagod na ako."

Right then and there, I noticed a familiar face that I hadn't noticed before. My brothers friend (At this time 21) on his motorcycle parked beside the sidewalk. He turned to look at me "Uy, ikaw pala 'yan? Tara, hatid na kita pauwi" he said. I was tired and did not think twice about letting this guy drive me home—after all, I knew him well enough, right?

I agreed but before he could drive me home, he paused, I wonder what that was about until he spoke "May facebook ka?" I didn't think much of it and let him add my account. After that, he drove me home and afterwards I accepted his friend request

The next few days after that he would constantly message me, nothing unusual just the typical "hi, how are you" and stuff like that. One day though, he asked if I wanted to hang with him—I thought to myself, why not? I agreed to hangout with him and he picked me up from home.

As he was driving us around, he asked me "So, saan mo gusto pumunta?" I told him we can go anywhere, not thinking much of it. He told me "Ikaw nga ang tinatanong ko, eh, saan mo ba gusto?" I blatantly told him "Kahit saan, kung ano trip mo."

He suggested many places, cafés, restaurants, etc. I once again told him, that I will happily join him in whatever he wants, as long as it will not get me in any sort of trouble. He said okay, and continued on driving. He did not talk to me the rest of the way until we stopped at a motel. "Huh? Baket dito?" I asked him, he didn't respond. He immediately checked us in—the motel didn't ask for any sort of ID or confirmation of my age at the time. Stupidly, sumama pa din ako sakanya into the room.

And for a while, I thought it was all okay. We just chilled and talked about random topics. He bought drinks too—though, I was not used to alcohol and got drunk very quickly. After a while as I was laying in bed under the influence, he asked me to kiss him. I denied his advances but he did not take no for an answer and still continued to kiss me—until he went farther than just kisses. He stripped me and did things. I did not know how to react, I went numb.

Later on, he told me that if I came out pregnant, he wouldn't take responsibility as the father. Because he believed I was already doing things with other men prior to meeting him. I was dumfounded. After that, my period thankfully came two weeks later, and we never spoke again.

To this day, I wonder if all that he did since the beginning was planned. But I guess I will never know.