So there was this girl whom initiated a convo by replying for my outfit snap as nice, then the story started. She started to text and we both sent our mirror selfies without showing face and somehow days went. One day we decided to reveal ourselves we both did. After that her interest started to reduce. Late replies after 24 hrs. Snap breaking. Sometimes seen zone too. So i confronted her asking why are you avoiding me? She said she was in a funeral home and she was busy and all. Naanum sari take care ethunaalum ping me nu vitutan. Then palaya padi illanalum we texted but the same late replies after hours and day continued, and the distance continued too. I'm an over thinker. I started to think maybe she didn't like how i look. Aprm she continued to do the same. Now finally she even removed me from snap🫠.

I had trust issues but i tried to trust her someone one last time. But i guess i never learned my lesson.

Already self hate oda uchathula irunthan. Now that has become self loathing. I can't even look my face in the mirror now. En phone la wallpaper en face ah patha I'm getting irritated. I don't know why. Avlo keavalama poitana naanu😐. I'm tired of connections. Done trusting people. Poramthu veetukum use illa, enakkum entha use um illa.

I don't even know why I'm venting my anger here, i don't know if people will read this. So yeah i hate myself to the core now. Regretting everything again amd again but not learning the lesson. FOOL

Self hate has turned into Self loathing