Searching for answers

A psychic has been sending me emails every day about my relationship and i can’t deny they seem to be right on the nail (I know its spam). As a Christian I feel somewhat uncomfortable to open them up, but I’ve been curious to see what they think is happening in my life. I received one email this morning telling me to send them any questions I might have for them, so I sent them a reply with no expectation of getting a reply back. I just want to be heard.

This is what I sent:

“Mia,

I know you mentioned stuff about my ex, but my ex is married …yet he reaches out to me every so often in hopes that I would come see him. Like for example he wanted me to go hang with him in LA and stated he would provide everything for me. Is that not strange for a married man to do this? This is why I don’t entertain such things because one, I’m currently in a relationship and two, it feels wrong to get involved even if it is just hanging out.  

I’m a 32F in a 3yr relationship with 38M which constantly leaves me confused. I love him with all my heart  and I do give my all to him . The closer I get to him the further he pushes me away though. He is the other half of me and I can’t bare to lose him. Lately, I haven’t been happy because my mind and my heart doesn’t allow me to be fixate on anything else other than the distance between him and I. We can be in the same room yet so far away. My heart keeps pounding so loud ,that is all I can hear and it keeps me up at night. I wonder if he can hear it too. I hope he can’t hear it yet he doesn’t know how it torments me. I always want to be perfect in his sight, but it feels like everything I do is wrong yet I still keep pursuing because he is the apple of my eye, the one I need, and the only person who can fill the void within . What can I do? “

Now I’m asking you all for advice too. Honestly, I don’t have many friends to give me their input. I pray to God to help me and provide an answer, but perhaps He has already provided one and I don’t see it or He will answer later in His time. Still I would like to hear from you all.

Much appreciated!