black sheep lesbian

reborn again and honestly went through a identity crisis and life humbled me along the way. I view things differently yet I still feel like the black sheep in one of the last standing community that I feel is more accepting. I feel very deeply, like if I was told something by someone I don’t know I will believe them. Example, finally allowed myself to let a girl in to my life, she said she was curious about me. Looking her look at me for sometime and she’s pretty gorgeous, just graduated w her degree and I know she’s enjoying life as she should but don’t tell me you want to know everythin about me then don’t act on it. Cause man I ready’d up and was all curious about her too. I prefer to stay out the way anyways, but I am human. I don’t prefer labels but I do only feel safer with another woman. Im more masc presenting, daddy energy But damn I have feelings too, I can notice very quickly when im being looked at lustfully and 💔💔 I just want to be loved by a beautiful fem, world can be hers and im okay with not being understood but lesbians please understand we all have feelings, we are all not wanting “ experience” some of us come from nothing and really just want enough to feel safer and secured. :/ just venting and sad, the pretty girl really didn’t do anything wrong but you just can say things you don’t mean. maybe im meant to live my purpose instead of enjoying love