i feel like my childhood wasn't bad enough to have CPTSD

sometimes i struggle with feeling valid in this diagnosis and i just wanted to talk about it.

i experienced purely emotional and parental neglect, nothing physical at all, even taps on the wrist or the back of the head, aside from one molestation at 3. it really frustrates me? because the human mind is so powerful and capable and resilient, but just because my mother wasn't perfect and some unfortunate things happened i have this disorder for the rest of my life?

i hear a lot of horrible stories from people who were physically abused as a child and i think "they absolutely have a reason to have this disorder", and i think that for emotional abuse cases too, just not my own. i flip back and forth between "it wasn't that bad" and "oh my god i would never treat a child that way" so it leaves me kind of numb. i don't know, do any of you feel this way?