Some words for smone

You won't find me in here.not really.

I was 5 when I first asked myself If I am real,if this is real and pinching myself in my grandma's mirror.

At my bday then a two week memorial was held for my grandpa.At 6 my cousins grandma was on her deathbed while we were hiding in the next room -we were not supposed to be there.At 7 another elder died and I watched his eyes open mid ceremony in church.Then when I was 8th my friend died in a car crash.Somehow death was part of my life from an early age .I almost drowned 3 times .Don't know if I had psychosis due to abuse in a relationship,witchcraft or spiritual awakening.

This is just a small portion of what made me who I am today.

I am greatful to be alive .I feel tho idk anything about life and still manage to understand some things maybe deeper than others .

Tho what I wrote above presents the dark,I think this is how we see the light .

Death is part of life.But so it's courage.And so it's truth and strength.

As light finds a way in the dark so does love ,and beauty and friendships .

For the first time I m not chasing love.It has found me in the most unexpected way.

I always draw the ♾️ infinity sign but double like everywhere .First cause it s my bday,second cause I always believed in the Universe and Physics even tho seemed hard to comprehend.