Have no hopes with myself

Hey i m 20yr old and have completed my 2years of engineering.

But i always ended uo as average and my parents thinks i m smart but im not.

Everytime i will end up being average or below average.

Some years ago i prepared for JEE end up in a tier 2-3 college.

Fckd up my grades here , prepared for job.

But all of sudden i have no hopes left , even if i get a job in this market it will be some low level thing.

My bf is doing great and i feel sad for him that i m not on his level.

I wont be able to help my parents while they sacrificed everything for me.

I have just stopeed the study.

Hope i meet any beautiful incident so dont have to suffer anymore.

Sorry i dont know why i m writing all these.

I m tired with all the good quotes and consolidation.

I m just weak to survive more.

People have bullied or troll me too but still i havent did anything by taking it on my self respect.

Sorry for my poor writing