Should I text him?👀

Soooooo there's a guy, I kinda knew from just stalking on the internet and he doesn't even know that I exist.

He is like My best friend's cousin's friend so he's kinda close to meet in real life yet far.

I really like the guy as for the way he looks, he's my type. And what's really interesting about that is that I've never had a crush on a man from my own country (which's Egypt btw👀) and never seen a man that really catches my eyes for the looks before.... that's kinda the first time. All I'm thinking about is I'm curious about his personality and how he is in real life, he's kinda like a beginner content creator and if I used the chance to text about the content as an advisor or a supporter... I'll manage how I'll talk to him

The problem about the whole thing is two things actually:

1. I'm 21 and he's 36 and this is might be dumb and teenage like for me to even try doing this insane shit that I'm intending to do (not to mention that my best friend might get disgusted from me if she found out)

2. I'm not ready for a relationship or event trying to get into one with him and what I am afraid of in the future if I did text him is I might get pulled to this direction and attached to someone that I'm not supposed to be with or exist in their life in the first place

3. I'm so lost in confused about my own emotions I really know what's going on with me and why I'm getting so child-like things, I've always been mature and a very disgusted and very not interested in relationships I'm not saying that I want to be in a relationship with anyone or this man specifically I just don't know what to do and there is a constant struggle and fight between my own emotions and my own curiosity I'm so lost and confused and if I told anyone this they might go 'NO DON'T TEXT HIM THIS IS WRONG' which's my mind's voice voice I'm trying to ignore

I'm so lost....so confused.... and so disappointed.... I need any piece of advice to tell me the right thing