Thoughts on if recovery is worth it

Ok guys.. I am having a hard time committing to recovery. This is my 2nd time experience HA. And after the 1st time “healing” and getting my period back… yeah in some ways I felt “better” but also my periods were ROUGH when they came back. Basically throughout the month cycle I got about 1 week a month where I felt GOOD/Like myself. 1.5 weeks of feeling “ok.”, and 1.5 weeks of feeling like SH*T! And when I’m in HA I pretty much just feel “ok” all the time… not good, not horrible. So I’m like, is recovery even worth it? If every month is a whole rollercoaster throughout the different stages of my cycle? Or should I just settle for this broken body and feeling flat and “ok” all the time :(