Need some help

Hi, everyone. I hope you’re all doing well. I’d like to ask for some advice and a few kind words.

Life has been really tough lately, and today was such a—really, really—hard day. I ended up crying at work, right in front of my manager (so embarrassing), and we even had a disagreement. It was awful.
But even so, I feel weighed down and unmotivated. It seems like everything is so complicated. I’ve been making a huge effort to change my perspective, but sometimes…
I feel a strong connection to the Law of One; I’m even reading theBook of the Destiny of Souls and I love it. I’m a very sensitive person—I admit it. In the sense that I’m very withdrawn and cold, but I feel things deeply and can’t accept that I’m like this. I still haven’t been able to deal with the shame I felt today for crying. The moment it happened, it felt like I had an out-of-body experience—maybe it was a defense mechanism.
I'm in my mid twenties and I’m on antidepressants, I see a therapist, and I’ve been doing everything right. I recently got another job, but it’s hard to deal with the pressure there.
Sorry for just dumping everything out like this, but I’m going through a really tough time right now. And I know I still identify deeply with the human experience—everything is temporary—but right now it’s hard.
Why is life on Earth so hard sometimes? I love planet Earth, and despite everything, there are still good moments.
Thank you in advance for listening ❤️